alright... i'm doing pretty good.

it's been four days since my last cigarette. i've quit several times before but this time - so far - doesn't seem so hard. every time i want one i get something to eat. soon i'm gonna have to call jenny craig.

speaking of her... why can't lesbians diet and wear make-up at the same time? they can't eat jenny craig with mary kay on their face! (wendell, tell gina that unless she's still readin...)

hank and i are still hanging out. he's a cool guy. very sweet. silly as hell. actually is at asa today in an interview to be a flight attendant. he just called and is taking a drug test, which is a good sign. kinda makes me miss the industry. wouldn't mind getting back in to it but, nah... not now.

hmmm... i got the script for the movie. it's gonna be good. i've got to start practicing. went to print it and kinko's the other day but they wanted $.50 a page... will have to find somewhere else since it is 98 pages long.

i'm eating ravioli and about to iron my clothes for work. more later.

i got the script!

so i went over today and signed my contract and got the script... just got finished reading through it. of course, i cannot say anything about it but i can say that it's an amazing movie.

several twists. bits of comedy. definitely a drama. also, i - or Will - has more time than i thought. should be fun.

more later. i'm at hank's and about to go to sleep.

beat!

so, have you ever sat on a white water rafting tube? i did for three hours and my ass is sore. (no jokes here, please.)

the day was fun, albeit an early start. we rafted the ocoee from where the '96 olympics were held down six miles the river. very fun. several nice class four rapids and no one fell out. we did, however, get to get out of the raft and swim for a bit. was fun.

we ate at some mexican restaurant where we ran into greg and terrance from atlanta. apparently the whole crew at prime buckhead had been rafting, too. how random?

the ride home was hell, though. i crashed for a bit but woke up having to pee like no one's business.

lazy, lazy day.

it feels so nice in my room. i haven't even turned on the lights yet. ordered moe's from zifty and have been playin' online listenin' to dave fm. bum, i know.

i've been working eight days straight and still have two to go. tonight i am cocktail, tomorrow i'm the closing server and friday i have the closing host shift, which means i won't get off work til after midnight each night. ugh.

on saturday, i'm doing a promo modeling promotion for wal-mart. should be fun... several other gay boys are doing it, too. it's a back-to-school promotion for college aged people.

sunday i'm going with the crew white water rafting. haven't been in ages. should be a blast. then i'm sure it'll be back to work, again. such is life in the real world.

last night was quasi-celebrity night in atlanta's gay nightlife... tom from queer-eye was out. and although he's one of the fab five who transform sloppy straight men into metrosexuals, he was in the bar in a white polo with his colar upturned.

in my opinion, that style was never in. but for those that did think they were cool, wasn't that like so yesterday, meaning at least a year ago? so much for being a trail blazer.

then there was e.j. from american idol fame. he's taller than i thought and nellier. put him in a pink dress and hand him a barbie doll. my god.

hmm... i should be getting my scripts this week at some point. will have to bury myself in those for a while. i'm excited and nervous all at the same time.

hmmm. it's 4:30. i should shower. nekkid.

i got the part...

so, yeah. i got the part. had to go through four readings. competed against four guys.

so, i'm will. gay guy. i will have brief nudity. my boyfriend is a black guy (straight in real life).

how's south georgia gonna like this? haha.

i'm excited!

we start filming next month through october... the film should be finished in decemeber or at the beginning of the year. its titled the book of john.

more later... but not too much. i had to sign a non-disclosure contract.

awesome!

alright... totally forgot.

so... i'm checking my e-mail 'cause i just got off work. i have an audition for a movie tomorrow at noon. i totally forgot. well, i sorta forgot. i knew i had it, i just forgot that tomorrow was the day.

so... i'll try to break a leg and let y'all know how it goes.

work went as usual tonight. wendell is here. otherwise, everything is normal.

later.

good morning (that's your afternoon)

so translate it yourself. i went to bed at four. what time where you in bed?

i'm getting so damn tired of my phone charger. it only works once-in-a-while and it wakes me up in the middle of the night beeping. and the reward... when i try to use the phone this morning, it's almost dead. of course, i could buy a new one to resolve this. i've known this for month's. in fact, it began in hawaii. can anyone say procrastinator?

wendell is coming into town this weekend. i think he has a doctors appointment or something like that. we'll probably get into some kind of trouble.

hmmm... i have to close the restaurant tonight but that should be lucrative for me. we'll see. last night wasn't. was working on the patio. way too hot to sit out there right now. i'm possibly transferring to greeter. it's a higher per-hour salary and you're guaranteed to make money. (they're tipped out by the servers... i normally tip an average of $10 to each of them.) i have a few days next week i'm working the door to see how i like it.

alright... i'm gonna shower. tired of sitting here.

so, about jonbenet

i always thought the ramsey's were innocent. there are those freakish mothers out there who make their children sick and shit but i just didn't think patsey was the mold for that. i met her and john once at home depot while they and i lived in vinings. or i should say i saw them. i did, however, wait on john while i worked at roasters. have his business card around here somewhere.

nonetheless, i read their book and watched the news surrounding the murder. i just never saw it in them. besides, after all these years, if it were them, there'd be a hole in the case or a slip of the tongue or something.

turns out it was the idiot in this picture. john mark karr. he is from georgia -- another freak in the cynthia mckinney file -- and was a teacher in conyers. from news reports so far, there hasn't been a clear connection of how this psycho knew the family. he has confessed, though, that he killed the innocent girl and even had sex with her after he drugged her.

being a victim of molestation myself, i have no tolerance nor respect for such people who would prey on the young and innocent. i pray that when they toss him into jail they announce loudly that he is a child molester and solicit the other criminals behind bars to return the favor to him.

i'm certain the family is glad there has been an arrest. they've been quoted as being 'elated.' for so long they were the suspects when all along this idiot has been criss-crossing the country being a teacher and nanny to other young children, no telling how many of them have become victims as well.

patsey, of course, passed away in june.

but, sometimes i wonder if it may have been better for there never to be an answer. i mean just the fact that now there will be a trial and this freak will have to regurgitate every thing he did to her tiny body. every sexual deviance he forced on her fragile frame. why not just take his word for it and throw him away?

god bless the family. as if they haven't had enough, they'll be going through no less than hell one more time.

haven't you always wondered...

there are many things i've always wondered about. one, for instance, is whether "little people" are anatomically correct. or are they larger. obviously, from the picture... well, i still can't tell. but you get the picture, pun intended.

alright, alright... so i know i haven't posted in forever. i've thought about it. i've made mental notes of things i wanted to write yet i just haven't. no excuses.

but, by popular demand, i'm back. my crazy life. friends. foes. all of it. ending unplanned.

so, i'm posting already...

alright. it's not long. maybe 'cause it's early in the freakin' morning. but here's a new post.

more later. the bed is calling.

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