putting all this bullshit to rest...

the headline read that anonymous came forward. in actuality, anonymous was not just one but six people. six sad, sad people. people who claim to be tom's friends but also ones who tom cannot even name. who are you people? tell us. that's when the headline will be correct.

by the way, i'm sitting in his living room with wendell discussing this post, sentence by sentence. i have not moved out, although i'm working on that. i have not terminated my friendship with tom, although i'm debating on exactly what to do.

victory. hmmm. i was never in a battle. but if you must put the crown on my head, it's only where it rightfully belongs. thanks.

i'm sorry to see such a faithful group of people... six. wow. that's gonna put my numbers down from 4,000 visits per month. i'm sorry to see y'all leave. especially since y'all have been around since late 2005.

perhaps instead of posting on my site, you should have been e-mailing me or talking to me face-to-face on the issues in which you believed you were such an expert. it's obvious tom wasn't as i'm about to detail the rebuttals both he and i, with a witness, have discussed and all agreed upon.

i'm not sure which posts you are talking about that were hurtful to tom. even he has no clue, which is becoming common. he's conveniently forgotten many conversations, happenings and even made up a few tall tales, in my opinion.

tom agreed that i never freeloaded off him. how could he, he agreed, when the things he has done for me have not been uncommon to what any other friend of mine would do and have been offered as gifts, not requests.

speaking of which, i have never, never, never asked tom to buy me a car nor pay for my education. when i first met tom, it was my desire to have a tahoe. this is something that was not a secret among any of my friends. it was tom who suggested he would buy me one. i assured him, as i have several times since, that i cannot be bought.

also, a desire of mine, which i am working on - alone - has been to return to school. again, it was tom's idea to offer to pay for my education. when he mentioned this to me in a bar in front of my boyfriend, i assuredly told him i was not interested in his offer. in fact, i was sickened by his vain offer in which i believe he was trying to boast.

obviously, he was wasted, in his own words, at a party with some of you so-called-friends of his when he began, with judy, he said, to feel 'woe is me' and spill his guts. he apparently talked about 'issues' he and i had. he's conveniently forgot what all he said but many are apparent since the 'gang of six' have mentioned them on here.

for tom's sake, not my own, nor wendell's, i will not mention the 'issues' we face here. one could be deemed criminal in many instances and the other perverse and sickening, which he could benefit from psychiatric treatment. at this point, that's all i'll say. i'm certain you have no clue of what i'm talking about because he certainly wouldn't want you to know 'that' side of him.

it's interesting to me... and my friends... that you always seem to think that you have my best interest in mind. however, not once have you cowards contacted me directly with your concerns. not once have you offered help. not once. if that's concern, i'd hate to see the opposite.

i never told tom i was keeping a 'stalker tom' file. i was. but i never told him that. ask him how he found out. it's interesting. i began to keep this, by the way, when he applied for a job immediately after i did to work on the cruise line at $6.25 an hour as a deck hand. you tell me why someone with his wealth and capital would do that.

oh... mike, you can tell us. remember when you came in to water the plants when i first arrived from hawaii? you remember the conversation you and i had in the kitchen when you called tom a stalker yourself and that you and javier accused him of such to his face. you remember, right?

if you don't remember that, perhaps you remember lake arrowhead and the interesting conversation you had with wendell. you remember telling him about tom's escorts and people sleeping in the hallway waiting on him to get home. you remember, right?

further, tom reads my website daily and on multiple occasions. he admitted to that tonight and i know that for a fact. in fact, i was onto your little gang of six long ago because, weirdly enough, tom was the one - most times - who alerted me to a new post. it was always interesting and it always seemed to happen after an issue arose amongst us.

wendell and i made no plots against anyone. wendell made a promise, which you guys told tom was a threat... same difference, really... that he'd protect me at all cost. wendell put that in writing but, let me assure you, that's a promise - or a threat if you will - that all my friends would sign in blood. period.

as far as the recorded conversation, tom's antics were much like yours. he was a coward. he recorded my cell phone conversation without my permission and from within his bedroom as i sat on the balcony. not admissable in court. probably not audible. and i don't give a damn. i told tom every word of the conversation before i ever made the call to wendell.

tom and i have not parted ways... as i mentioned, i am in his living room now. he's having a beer. i do plan to leave soon but unfortunately i have to work things out with where i am going. rest assured, i won't be here any longer than i must.

let's get one thing straight: tom has not supported me financially. if he is, he's doing a damn poor job as i've been completely broke and without money pretty much the past month. as we discussed this particular part of the post, tom said he was including food and rent and such. his opinion changed when i reminded him it was his offer, not my request to stay here. those things were gifts.

perhaps, gang of sick, i mean six, you should also come out to tom so that he can tell who his true friends are. it's funny to me you're looking out for him when, for the past two months, his phone hasn't rung, his doorbell has been silent, and his home without personal guests. in that same amount of time, my phone rings off the hook, guests are common and i'm always with the people i care about and love so much. that's how me and my friends interact. maybe y'all are just different.

i will continue to monitor my website as i always have. after all, i want to know who, when and where about my visitors. whether you come back to read or comment is really trivial to me. it always has been. but, i'm a leo and i love a challenge and you gave it to me. i've gotten to the bottom of it and i've learned that i have been wrong all along.

i've learned that i have neglected some friends while listenting to the lies of another. i've learned that i cannot demand all my friends get along. i'll still hope but i cannot demand it. it won't work.

i've also learned the same thing you observed... i have some damn good friends. damn good. and they do rally around me. without them right now, i'd not be complete. there are so many things array in my life but having them fills the voids like you wouldn't believe. it's also, anonymous, how i can brush off your being such idiots. it really is. we all think this has been funny and better than the best mystery novel ever written.

i guess, most of all, what we've learned, is what sad souls you are. what sad souls that take time from their work day to browse my site. buddy did.

what sad souls are such backstabbers. mike and javier are.

what sad souls send e-mails for a hook-up then talk trash behind my back. rod did.

what sad souls divorced bitter bitches are. judy is.

what sad souls lonely old men are. tom is.

you can learn a lot from a dummy.