guess who anonymous is???

after leslee told me there were more anonymous postings on my web site... i finally had enough. the comments don't particularly bother me. it's that people choose to hide behind something that is mine... something that i use to share my life with others... to attack me.

it's pretty damned cowardly if you want to know my true opinion. even if you don't, it's still cowardly. i'm not one to hold my opinion back as you well know, anyway.

so, i decided to be proactive and called at least three people of whom i suspected. two denied it, one of which i still doubt. another admitted it was, in fact, him.

tom said he wasn't the only one, though. he said he did it after others did it. he admitted that he saw the choice to post his name yet chose not to. apparently, in his thinking, he thought i'd realize it was him. i suspected, and turned out to be correct, although i was never certain.

i discussed in much detail with tom how cowardly i thought he was and how much i did not appreciate his misaligned comments. i will not divulge all the we discussed as that is our business and, like those comments, not meant for my journal.

however, because those comments were posted on my journal, i did respond to them on my journal. if you read them and were mislead or a bit upset as some of you stated, i encourage you to read my responses.

i'll say now -- for the record -- i know i am not perfect. i know that it wasn't all post's fault that i was fired. i know i wasted time and energy looking for a job. i know all this. believe me, i know.

what i know more than anything, though, is that i am an inidividual. i am mathew roger palmer. i am the only one there'll ever be and i have been this way since i breathed my first breath more than twenty-six years ago. i am me. i have my ways. they may not be right but they work for me. me is all i have to worry about.

i have no children. no partner. nothing more than me. as long as me is content, then that is fine. if you have any advice or concern for me, please do not hide behind a fucking computer or anything else. be brave enough, damnit, to tell me to my face.

don't be scared of me. don't pretend like i'm the bad guy. if the way i choose to live my life harms or overly concerns you, perhaps you should look into the mirror and find out why you're not living you life the way you choose.