i'm home again. budweiser never tasted so great. mmm... relaxin.
i think i may leave for atlanta tomorrow, although i'm not sure. i have a lot of stuff i have to take care of before i fly out on friday. i did take care of some things here.
i bought two duffle bags... my luggage has to be collapsable. so much for the two-hundred dollars worth of luggage i bought with airtran. and the set my grandmother gave me for graduation. before long, i'll have enough to store my whole loft in luggage.
i also got the locks i needed but forgot the v-neck tees. i hate them but my contact said i had no option. they had to be v-neck. i have to have something snug around my neck. v-necks always feel like a stretched-out shirt to me. one more thing, perhaps, that i'll have to grow accustomed to.
i work briefly this afternoon at the expo, again. before leaving, i took just three bunches of bananas out of one of three boxes left over. i'm gonna bake a banana pudding in a minute. it's gonna be g-o-o-d good.
i'm gonna run. gotta start thinking about what i want to do as a going-away party or what-have-ya.
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i bet your mama would enjoy sharing that banana pudding with you. please don't be so cruel to someone that loves you so much.
you're so sick and pathetic
Tom is it? Not that I give a shit. This will probably be my last comment to your stupid ass just because my time is needed elsewhere and I think that I have made my point.
Mat's relationship with his mother is his business. But, who can argue with you? You have everything all figured out and you know everything for a fact. I am not judging you for leaving comments, I just think that you are a fucking ignorant prick. If you care so much for Mat then you would have more respect than this. The fact is that you don't care. You think you have all the facts to every situation and you don't. You think you know it all and you don't. There is a way for you to give your opinion in a sincere and friendly way. Anything other than that is just butting in. What do you lose from Mat having the relationship with his mother that he has? Nothing. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe she does call you personally to cry on your shoulder and tell you how shitty her son has been to her all these years. Maybe you go down there to Sale City and sit on the couch and have coffee and have a Mat bashing session. I doubt it but, maybe. On the chance that there are a rat pack of anonymous bloggers on the Mat attack then I suggest that you guys all get together and have meetings to get over the stress that you and your buddies have endured because if you truly knew Mat then you know for a FACT that nothing is going to change whether you like what is going on or not.
Blog away fuckers.
I completely agree that NOTHING will change Mat. If you knew anything, you would know that his mother just does not "bash" him. He is her child and she loves him very much. I guess you'd have to see the pain in her eyes, the eyes of a mother, to know what I mean.
i disagree with both you jennifer and anon... i can, have and do change. that's why i am not speaking to my mother.
i changed from the little child who always did everything i could to gain her praise. her love. her attention.
i changed to the son who saw that it was too much a one-way street. i changed to the son who quit trying everything i could and am waiting on her to accept me for who and what i am.
i am waiting on her. i've done my part, i believe.
and your comment, anon, is one that i am so fucking sick of i could puke: the pain in her eyes, the pain of a mother.
the god i serve says to honor your father and mother. i've done that... for years i have done that. i have conceded so many times even when i thought i was right.
is it because the bible doesn't command to honor thy children that none of you, including her, see the pain in my eyes? the eyes of a son.
is it that no matter what, just because she's the parent, she's always right and i'm always wrong.
where do you store the hurt, the pain and the years of wrongdoing? what do you expect me to do?
i would love to see my mother. i would love to talk to her. i'd love for her to know what i've been doing for the past two years she's been absent from my life.
however, i want her to make the effort. i want her, like i have already done, to acknowledge that she has faults. i want her to see what i've been going through.
instead, all i get is that i'm spoiled and am told i shouldn't feel the way i feel. others say i should let my bitterness go.
let me tell you, though, it's not that easy. if it were, i'd be there.
Mat, have fun being as fucked up as you are. No one ever said that you didn't hurt. Get over yourself. hell, I have changed my view now. Your mother is a lot better off without a sorry piece of shit like you in her life. What the fuck ever about her being the parent and always being right! Stop belittling your family on here. They deserve so much better. If you hate them all so much, why even talk about them? you don't even take the time to talk to them. Hypocrite. Sorry fucking asshole!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have fun each day, thank you. and i am very happy with who i am.
you say no one said i ever hurt yet each commenter -- all anonymous -- has said to suck it up and get over it? what sense does that make?
as far as belittling my family on here... remember, this is my journal. i'll put what i want as long as i want and with good conscience. each word i've typed is the truth.
also, i've never said i hated any of them. in fact, i've said quite the opposite.
the only thing i hate is cowards like you.
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