2006 :: year of mathew

i was thinking earlier... sometimes i do that... and i thought about me. i do that a lot, too.

but, i thought... ya know, things are going really well for me right now. they are.

one might imagine they aren't. there's the situation with my vehicle, which i've decided is not worth an effort to worry or fight. then there's the fact that i'm five time zones away from absolutely everyone i care for and love minus about five people.

then there's the fact that i'm stuck on a ship, sort of...

but things are awesome. my head is clear. my direction is mapped. my goals are within reach or have been attained. it's really all coming together.

for the positive things... i've stuck to my 'six month promise' to myself except for one person, twice. (mistake, which pisses me off but i still held out and continue to...) i haven't had a cigarette in two days. i've taken my vitamins and had a shake for the past week. and, i have a dentist appointment thursday.

i'm gonna be whole again, dorothy. the wizard is gonna give me that brain i've needed, replenish my heart and grant me the courage to keep going. i know it.

it's my year, damnit. i'm taking advantage of it.

meanwhile, i'm going to find a phone to call connie, a cab driver who has my phone. apparently i left it in her cab today.