word gets around in a small, small town. or so the song says. when does one become wrong for expressing feelings and emotions that are natural and of which he has no control?
i tried to lay out today but the sky is overcast. i didn't have enough patience to lay there during the clouds. perhaps that's a fitting analogy of my life right now. i need to be patient during the clouds. later, maybe.
it's almost lunch time. i was going to eat while i was off the ship but i forgot my wallet onboard. so, it's crew mess for me. i've eaten some peaches and alphabet soup this morning. i have a million snacks in my room but they're all crunchy and require teeth. ha.
i just talked to the cruise director about changing to cruise staff. i am really beginning to hate the bar department. we're made to be vultures on people who clearly don't intend on drinking. we're more of a depends-changing, walker duty department. do young people exist anymore?
anyway, the cruise staff have more benefits, such as... more pay, access to the ships restaurants and bars, shorter, more efficient hours... two-man cabins. just better, i think. i'm tired of walking around pressuring people to buy something they never intended to have.
we'll see what happens.
i have another dentist appointment next week. it's been one already. my mouth is healing rather well and i haven't had any pain. just about like when i had my wisdom teeth out.
i'm hungry. tired of typing. later.
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glad to see that you can at least realize when you are wrong. you ought to think about who you are affecting when you post your thoughts so willingly. if you think you can make it on your own, go ahead and try big boy.
This Website and Blogspot belongs to Mathew(with one t)and is for use as he sees fit. Some may not agree with his postings or his methods in the use of it. That is their perogative. However, it is his site. Even I have taken some postings personally but respect the fact that he can post as he chooses. He has set it up to allow friends and readers to add their personal thoughts and comments and even tell him what they think of him. BUT if you are going to attack him for what he posts or feels, shouldn't you have the courtesy, NO, the decency and well, guts, balls or backbone to do so and post your name? Come on Anonymous, your comments would have much more merit if your name was posted to it. Don't be a coward!! Who you are may have more effect on how your comments are perceived.
**Maybe Anonymous posters can be deleted as an option.
thanks, anonymous. your commentary always brightens my day. perhaps it's because i know when you post that i'm better than you and know just a bit more.
as wendell stated -- thanks, by the way -- this is my site and i will post on it what i decide. as i posted a couple days ago, i do censor some stuff... not for the protection of my reputation or my well-being but that of those around me. believe you me, there is much, much more that i could post that would blow your mind, particularly if you're who i believe you are.
you're right and i was, too, when i posted... i can be wrong and am often times. however, even in my being wrong, it's my life. you, an anonymous coward, have no effect on it whatsoever other than to add your minute opinion once-in-a-while.
take a look at my life, if you will, and see where i have come from. while there have been family and friends along the way, all of which i'm grateful for, much of my life has been on my own. i am the 'big boy' i am today because of my integrity, my attitude, my persistence, and my desire to be more than that i came from.
what is better, would you say: for me to hold my thoughts in and be unhealthy both mentally and physically or express them here where my friends can see them and discuss them with me? while it does not happen so openly online, believe me, those who read my journal question me, my thoughts, my actions and reactions.
although i'm confident in my decisions, they're not etched in stone. through this outlet and the dialogue that follows, i make better decisions and am able to re-think and change those that are bad.
when you decide, anonymous, to allow me and those who frequent my site to see who you are and be critiqued as you so freely do to me, then and only then will i even attempt to respect you.
for now, i will allow you to enjoy your fifteen minutes of fame. as i have not deleted posts from other -- or perhaps the same -- anonymous people, i will not delete this one. what is here is here.
but beware, hick, the hour glass doesn't stand still. your sand is about to be mud.
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